what do i mean by
"THE ONE"?
if you have watched
the movie called 'matrix',
then you will know.
if you dont,
then too bad coz
i wont tell you!

i seriously dont know
why you are THE ONE!
haix... issit coz i'm thinking too much?
if so, why cant i control it?
i hope i knew it.
but i dont.

you are not the correct person.
i knew it long ago.
you are just going to be
another passer-by in my life.
i knew it too.
you are just a horrible person.
i knew it from your action.
you dont deserve my time.
i knew it too.
you dont deserve to
occupy part of my mind.
i knew it coz i just knew it.

BUT...............
why are you still there for me?
why are you caring for me?
why do you still mean something to me?
why do you want to know what happen to me?
why are you still in my mind and my sight?

i dont want to waste my time on you!
i dont want to waste my friends' time on you!
i dont want to waste my energy on you!
i dont want to waste my phone bill on you!
i dont want to waste my saliva on you!
i dont want to waste my brain cells on you!
i dont want to waste my good day on you!
i dont want to waste my good mood on you!
i dont want to waste my food on you!
i dont want to waste my money on you!

i dont know what i want!
i dont know what i'm talking!
i dont know what i'm doing!
i dont know what i'm thinking!
i dont know what i'm feeling like!
i dont know what i'm typing!
i dont know what number to ring up!
i dont know who am i ring up!

when will i start to make sense of everything?
when will i be completely awake from this nightmare?
when will i realise that it is a silly thing to get bother with?
when will i get over it and treat everything normally?
when will i start acting normally?
when will i start to act as the hardworking and cheerful FERN?
when will i stop calling people up just to talk about those silly thing??

i dont know, i dont care and i tired!
WHY????? WHY?????