hi people. back from dinner.
get to see my bro and sis-in-law.
kinda of miss them. didn't get to talk much
daddy was talking serious business with them.

dinner was nice! crab-feast!
hm... I'm now sick of crabs.
no more crabs for the rest of the week.
on the way home i was telling my daddy
abt the some easy-money jobs outside.

ME: oh... i heard from my friends that
there's a sale job that can earn money easily.
there's a guy who is a manager by 18 and
the company gave him a BMW.
another guy who become a millionaire by 30.
D:let me ask you a qn. used some times to think abt it.
would you rather be a millionaire by 30
and be bankrupt by 50 than another way round.
(for course is the another way around.
who will like to be bankrupt at the age of 50?)
ME: of course i know it's kinda of difficult
to earn such easy money coz it's nearly impossible.
D: ya. it's not impossible. indeed there's people like that.
but the person is not you. it's someone else.
(ya... who knows someday i will be the "someone else")
ME: but that 30 years old guy is like really rich now.
he doesnt even need to work.
he just shake leg and money will roll into his pockets.
D: ya... but you must know that not everyone on Earth
have such luck and ability.
so you think everyone can be BILLY GATES??
there's only 1 BILLY GATES in the world.
it's like 1 out of 8 billions of people.
so what makes you think that you can be
as rich and as lucky as him?
(of course i know la. he's the richest guy in the World.)

so back home... i have a REALLY good time talking
with my daddy abt some serious career matter.
"jobs is more abt interest, not all $$$"
i kind of regret talking to him now.
coz his words make me feel insecure abt my future.
i dont know what's my interest now.
i dont know where in the furture am i heading towards now.
i dont know what i want now.

suggestion given by my daddy to find my interest:
1. go out and play as much as i want for 3 days.
2. later come home, sleep and eat as much as i can for the next 3 days.
3. stay at home and reflect. think abt what i really like and want.

okay... let me tell you what i think abt this suggestion:
1. the first step is very ridicules.once i go out and play,
i doubt i'll be home for a long time, i'll play until the day i die.
or even worse, i might play until i have a family.
2. if i eat and sleep all day long,
i doubt that i'll even want to work anymore.
maybe i will live off my parents.
even if things doesnt happen that way,
i will still have to spend like
a week time to shed off some fats first
3. i dont have the ability to stay at home
and do all the thinking and stuff.
i bet i will fall asleep within 1 hrs at most.

anyway, from this point of time onwards,
i must find my interest in live asap!