maybe i just asked for it man.
gosh. what's the use of being nice to people??
trying to concern abt them and
checking how's their life going on?
it seems so redundant to be nice to people.

when you're freaking tired,
hoping to relax but found out that
you have neglected some impt elements of your life
which is your friends.
you put in effort to care for your friends.
talk nicely and listen to them.
to sound as those they are wanted badly by you
and that you're happy to chat with them.
(which i'm really happy).

esp. when you know your friends
just had a long tired day just like what you had,
all the more you want your friend to feel the best
he/she can during the conversation.
maybe it's kind of unfortunate that later on 
you received some harsh words.
but you keep your cool and remain silent
becoz you dont want to quarrel
and make things turn bad for after all
you know that both parties are too tired to quarrel.
in the end, the person just sounded pissed off and
just hang up the phone on you.

so i guess this is the result or
even best.... retribution
for being nice to people huh?
hm... nvm then. it's like so freaking selfish la.
you bother to talk to concern abt your friends
and even bother to talk more nicely
after knowing he/her had a long day
but he/she just give you something you dont deserve.

so you think i have a easy day and
can tahan this kind of lousy treatment??
ya.... maybe i do. why??
coz that person didnt even bother to ask how's my day.
not even to mention whether he/she cares how abt my feeling.

ya... so what?? who to blame??ME LOR! why?
who call i so kaypo, be a busybody and
to show concern for my friends like
as if they need it so much.
come one la, who cares whether you call or not.
who needs you to care abt them 
as in who are you to them seriously??
it's not as if your friend care that much.
they are busier to care for other stuffs.

maybe i think i' no longer worth their time and concern.
they are just tired of me and dont need me anymore.
i look so EXTRA and Worthless.
so i guess i have to excuse myself out of their life.