i'm the source of all problems
i cant go out with my friends coz i have a very screwed up life.
i cant take control of my life coz i let someone to be in control.
i cant talk to anyone becoz my timing is always wrong.
(like excuse me? who will want to talk to a
super annoying girl at 11pm to 12am
sacrificing your slping hrs?)
i cant handle my emotions coz i'm a weakling.

i feel so unwanted these days.
no one want to talk to me, not even to listen.
no one give a damn to me, believe me seriously..
feeling so loser now. i guess it's not abt wrng timing coz
how on earth can everyone not available when i need them?
it must be me the one with probs.
i guess the type of ppl are not the same everywhere.
and it's all my fault for not being able to
adapt to all these difference in life coz i sucks.
to be frank, i dont like the type of ppl in TJ. they arent all nice ppl.
tkgs is a better place with better and nicer ppl,
and ppl whom you definitely can depend on and rmb FOREVER.

i guess i'm so annoying these days
coz i cant control my mood.
it's always out of control.
there's too many ups and downs
in a day for me to handle.
so is it for others yet i didnt spare a thought for them.
yup... i'm being too sensitive to ppl's words
yet being insensitive to other's feeling.
it's always like "I", "I" and "I".
i know i'm too self-centered and all.
i only know how to add on to probs for others
haix.. i dont know what to do now.

why am i so annoying?
why am i so so insensitive?
why am i so weak?
why am i so problematic?
why am i behaving like this that
makes everyone shuns away from me?
why am i acting like a stupid loser?
why am i the source of all prob?
why cant i just simply make life easily for everyone?
why cant i just do my best in making ppl ard me happy?
why cant i spare a thought or two for others?
why cant i just disappear from the world?
why cant i just keep all my negative energy to myself?
WHY?

i feel like leaving this place for good.
escape to some place where i can start everything afresh.
may it be a short period of time like
a week or two will also be good enough for me.
i dont want to see the world. it's too much for me, not the world.
coz afterall i'm just the SOURCE OF ALL PROBLEMS!