hey people. i'm lazying ard now.
not productive at work at all.
wasted the house day rotting at home
esp in front of my tablet. damn it.
i really need to know what i really wants in life.

anyway i got so bored and i decided to have some
"quality time" with my mum and sis.
we're like watching this hong kong drama.
MUM: actually a woman is most blessed if
she can find a guy who loves her more than she loves him.
okay. this comment was weird, but it makes sense.
(i'm not going to have this super long discussion
or write a whole long chunk abt it)
so i guess this is the way how mum and dad
manage to sustain their relationship for so many years.

let's talk abt the whole e-learning thing. really sucks
i'm sure there's some conspiracy behind it.
i always have this feeling that the school is
trying to make our studying method difficult,
make us appreciate the fact that we're going to sch
and to make us rot and turn fat at home.
i'm deprived of my freedom to go out, to watch TV, to shop,
interact face to face with my friends, to watch movie and
to get more pocket money etc.

the system sucks too.
it doesnt allow me to upload any more file when
the total number of files has exceed the 1MD limit.
being super pissed off... i called the e-learning service line guy
in the middle of the night to ask him for help.
when i say middle of the night, i mean like 12 to 1am.
it's not only one time, but a few time.
i swear that he must be swearing and cursing me
for being an idiot who called in the middle of the night
coz he sounded he just woke up and was rather pissed.
i guess it's really a sad job for him... too bad.

i realised that i need to achieve self-actualization
coz i dont know what do i serve in this world and society.
i went to check abt how to achieve self actualisation
and i just found out that i belong to social needs level,
which is part of psychological aspect of Maslow's hierarchy.
i need to achieve the next level which is
esteem needs level before achieving self-actualization.
1 more checkpoint to go yet it's a long way to go.
damn it. i guess i will have to work hard then.