Many of us spend our whole lives running from feeling with the mistaken belief that you cannot bear the pain. But you have already borne the pain. What you have not done is feel all you are beyond the pain. --Bartholomew

someone once asked me what's the point of holding a grudge, and keeping those "comfortable" painful feelings inside? why cant you put it down? it's been so long. Truth is you can't forgive because you have already decided that it is too hard.

i cannot forgive what they have done becoz what they have done is unforgivable. is it really CANNOT? or the unwillingness to try? forgiving is not as simple as it seemed in drama or movie.
it takes time and effort to work through all pain to forget those hurtful events.  

i dont know. it's not easy. "forgive or not?" isnt a simple qn becos the situation is different everytime. i admit i'm very selfish sometimes. when someone did something wrong, i expect apology yet i might not forgive. when i did sth wrong, i expect forgiveness and understanding.

"no one is prefect, neither am i", "everyone makes mistake". the acts of not forgiving others  seemed so unreasonable all of a sudden because of these reasons. it's definitely not easy to apologies, coz  it's abt the one's pride, shame or even fear. 

on the lighter note,
i was out with vivian. goh and beiyi today for red cliff.
tony was all that ever hot haha.
went to mintmark. co to buy vivian's mom's birthday present.
haha. saw jj, ben, mana at citylink.
they are the people whom i least expected to see.
dinner outside tonight.
i'm going to be aunt soon haha.
i'm going to have a super cute niece or nephew.
yup.. my sis-in-law is pregnant.
it's a jan baby. wow that's so cool.

it's wrong to not forgive, but it's right to take time to forgive.
does it mean that it's fine even if it's going to take a life time?


i hope that forgiving isn't that difficult
or at least the one who is seeking for forgiveness isnt you.